会长大的幸福 

， 

 

 

 

seems that i missed an interesting morning.

 er,,,, syd has a new dress now. It sounds so weird coz i m a lil bit excited, or better, i could say i m watching a sci-fi.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Here comes mummies!! aha..... Almost everyone around me is discussing it.

 

Maybe today is a hurrah day for carwashing,

maybe today is a horrible day to who walks on the street.

post some pics browsed just now,

source:http://www.smh.com.au/environment/sydney-turns-red-dust-storm-blankets-city-20090923-g0so.html

 

23rd Sep 2009. It is called as dust strom.

could you believe that this is sydney?!

 

here is news website:

 

 

howl~~ i finish homework !!  never-end assignment , never-end exam, so we ask more time to work hard and play hard~~  haha~

obviously, midnight working is much more effective for me, i enjoy it more and more . To be a real  person now. hoho

 

i was talking with yuho on facebook.

she tried to transfer jpns songs into english 4 me coz i can't get most of them. Some melodies are nice, and we both luv BOA'S Forever. ..

We also talked about school life. Tmr is mq's conception day, guys are ready to have fun expect some, such as me.Poor girl who has whole day classes. haha..but this is indeed my real life.It's ok.

 

I am laying on bed now ...

Recently i am so easy to get sick of thinking. i am losing all interests in chasing---anything, everything. 

(well, what i said just a feeling, just sometimes. )

In this whole week, this feeling eats me up... eats me up...

hope after the mid-term exams, it will disappear naturally >:-)

 

finally, post my new cutting...

(by lisa, 3Q lovely)

haha, i will color it sooooon..lingling and i hv chosen  the color， XD~

a bit excited .

 

 

     有预感这篇日记会写得很羞涩，很无厘头。(深呼吸，开始）

    

     因为刚刚调整了一下space的版式，索性翻阅了前一页的吹水稿和一些隐藏的模块。看到一半，顿感相当难为情！！发现以前会把爱和阴郁的情绪挂嘴边，会写意识流，会不断需要寻找和证明自己.....也发现曾经那么风魔小众音乐，那么疯癫熬夜，那么洒脱激烈......还有那么多出行的回忆，走了一些路，去了一些地方，转变过一些观念....今天看来，有的是笨拙，有的是纯真。

     而更多的是幼稚。

     好诧异，自己曾经在某个状态里那么迷失。迷失那么久。傻傻的。我甚至有点不敢相信，刻意点出时间的列表，按着时间慢慢往回看。你不知道，我曾回看过以前的日记，不止一次的。但以前顶多觉得胡言乱语，天马行空。这是第一次！第一次有这样的感觉，感觉自己曾经很稚气。反正，我无法忍受自己那么矫情，有想格式掉空间的冲动！呼。。。真的好自嘲呵！！！！！

 

     首先关于爱。大概是心智成熟了，会把情感内敛，沉淀。尽管还总是不能收放自如，常常被好朋友笑说活得过于率性和直白，被一些人视为负担，被一些人戏弄。但觉得人有几样东西是需要自己独立完成的，比如承受孤独，丰满内心，以及在融合他人之前先变成完整的个体。现在生活在国外，过着据说，也确实很容易空虚的生活。经历身边的一些人和他们对待情感的态度，不经意间很庆幸自己，反而能对人类的情感有逐渐清晰的轮廓。两年以前和现在，已经不一样。四年以前和现在，是完全的不同。有些理解太肤浅，却曾是那么浓烈，想来羞愧。其实作为个体要怎么去爱，这些原本就无所谓对错，只在于每个人不同的原则，在于你有没有原则。我想，人在情感面前，要保持细腻鲜活的心，要保护好不怕受伤的勇气，在不知道要什么的时候先试着明白自己不适合什么。这些统统不容易。尊重、态度、责任、包容、淡定，都是很博大的词。事实上，无论是大爱或是男女之间的情爱，仅仅知道爱是不够的，还要懂得去感觉对方的感受。喔，还有一点很重要，就是不要浮躁不能急。这个很难，我知道。因为我还总是做不好，呵呵。想说的是，所有值得珍惜的，都要用心用脑再用心。这个也很难。因为我总是用心不用脑；-）

 

     （写到这里，本文已相当无条理。希望别介意。我只是想捋顺自己澎湃的诧异。继续。）

 

     另外一点是看待事物的眼光变了，因为学习的领域改变了。marketing赋予了我弹性看待社会的眼光。我喜欢也一直骄傲自己拥有一个独特的触觉，是marketing的学习培养出来的人性化和细腻，是一个符合自己原本个性的视觉延伸。但现在随着接触了越来越多的accounting和模型分析，同时刻意培养自己建立理性逻辑的模型--尽管它们枯燥和条理化--但锻炼了自己透过表象看本质的能力。我必须承认，在很多决定面前，仅有感性和人性是不够的。我常常，常常地困惑，人为什么需要那么多条条框框去封闭自己的心灵，去固化量化无形的东西。特别是acct，总是追求profit追求balance追求绝对的debit和credit，这些斤斤计较板板条条，对于我实在有困难。但是，我也开始觉得acct和mkt其实不相悖。只是方式不同，终点却是一致的。就像人类一样。

     呼。 完毕。 特此审视自己的变化。望他日有新突破。

 

 

 

wuwu.. today we tried to home made Sticky Rice Balls with Pumpkin & red bean! ( omg.. such a long name>-<, haha). but we failed.

 

 

 

 

 

周一中午1点半，今天的我好烦哦！

 

好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦！！！！ 我好早就起床了！我起床的时候天就下雨了！下雨了我就吃早餐了！吃了早餐了就赖着没去运动了！然后一天又过了一半啦！但是！书还是没看完！考试还是没考完！讲义还是没看完！总是看不完！我就不看了！但是！不看还是得去考试！想睡觉呢！又睡不着哦！所以好烦好烦好烦好烦！"

 

夜晚的考试让我烦，看不完的书也让我烦！怎么办，好烦喔！

 

huh~, so fun that when i weaked up i got an email from a long-distance friend suddently.

and she just posted my tarot reading for today.

did u know tarot before, and did u use it? For so long, i always could not believe that ur future could be forecasted with several pieces of cards. its weird;-)

 

but i really luv today's comment, so let me share it with you all:

 the devil(love) the pope(touchstone)the magician(career)

comment:

The selection of the Pope and the Devil indicates that you know how to temper passion with wisdom today. Your relations with others will be lively but sincere, which will strengthen the bonds between you and your loved ones. Your personality is exuding a confidence that's synonymous with charm, expansion and love of life, dear huan. Spread a little happiness around and have some fun! In your work sphere, the Magician and the Pope will enable you to analyze the situations wisely that arise during the day. Your great objectivity will allow you to circumvent or resolve any problems. Whatever happens, if the situation becomes more complicated you will always choose harmony over discord.

 

 

well, be honest, the ones she said are actually that i lack !! i always get in trouble acting with uncertainty or hesitance or lack of confidence and patient.

i.e.,i should have more time to get on better with myself first. -0.0~~. yes, i really need to get over it by myself. guys, kept close watch on my bearing.

 

 

这一天下午，下雨和居家的伏案作业，

清爽的空气，让人联想万里以外的天空，

于是想拥抱，想奔跑，

想在某一刻

在那个人的面前，在这个世界面前

能感觉到自己再不是渺小的

 

我想会更有勇气地对明天说

我愿意

 

 

我们享有空气，但无法拥有空气；我们享有阳光，但无法拥有太阳。

耐人回味